Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star
This is my Star Year… and I am not sure how or why, but my girlfriend told me and I trust her. As last year was my Tower year, I started this year with a whole lot of apprehension and cynicism.
The Star card is one of my least pulled cards whenever I do a read for myself. I am not sure if that means my life has been lacking in hope and illumination, but I do know that since I have been working through tarot in the past two, nearly three years, I rarely pull the Star card. This leaves me feeling like a blank slate on what to do with this energy.
Key elements associated with the Star:
water magic
expansion
inspiration
radical acceptance, forgiveness
restoration of hope
being at peace, granting grace
quiet confidence within grief
healing after trauma
expectations fulfilled
finding positive solutions
release of doubt and limiting beliefs
Admittedly, I am not always sure what to do with tarot. For example, am I to embody these? Am I to expect these elements? Do these elements define my year? Should I be seeking out these elements throughout this year?
The more I sit and reflect, the more I feel like the answer is that I am supposed to do all of the above.
Last year was my Tower year and I feel like it was all about a crumbling of my ego. I bit the bullet and returned to social work, a field that drained me, triggered wild autoimmune flares as much as it triggered my c-PTSD, and strained my family life. It was fulfilling and I am good at this work, but sometimes I am not sure about the costs. Last year, it was rejoin the workforce for health insurance and a steady income, or risk losing it all. My ego took a massive hit, but in this release, a new sense of confidence came out.
And as we creep toward the middle point of this year, my Star year, I am seeing all the ways that the elements of the card is showing up all around me.
My divorce is finalized and that chapter is closed officially. It means that I can now lean into the light-filled hope of what future possibilities can bring. It doesn’t mean that it will be easy or all bubbles and shit, but it does mean that somewhere between the ego destruction of giving up on being an underpaid Black content creator to return to social work for financial stability…. and the finality of my marriage, new possibilities are blooming from the cracks and ashes.
I do not identify as a “Happy Person”. I am a sad, sassy betch. I own that. I have lived through some things and I carry both heavy lessons and losses. So for me, renewal of hope means something with a little more grit. Rather than this feeling of whimsical inspiration and carefree lightheartedness, rising out of my grief and trauma is a renewal of Curiosity!
I feel less afraid to fail. I feel like being curious again, and I know that the curiosity might stun or even kill this cat, but I have several lives- so many chances - for healing, renewal, revival, change, evolution. I will fuck this up. I will make amends, learn, grow, release, and try again. Over and over and over.
I am also realizing that the Star is an invitation to WORK. I am being called to dig my way through the rubble of trauma, grief, confusion, and failures to seek out that light at the end of the tunnel. And who knows, maybe that “light” is just a lonely firefly, buzzing aimlessly to let me know that once we connect, neither of us is alone. Or maybe, that “light” is just a faint glimmer of an actual star that is countless light years away, reminding me that this universe is impossibly large, full of limitless chances, possibilities, and outcomes- a gentle reminder to enjoy the journey because it is simultaneously infinitely longer than we realize, while also seeming to end all in the blink of an eye. I am feeling like the hope we feel is a recurring payment for the work we endure on this journey toward that light.
And lastly…. The Star isn’t just about finding hope. I believe that I am put here in this world to BE hope for others. No, I am not a “Happy Person”.
I am supportive. I am a problem solver. I am creative. I am a visionary. I am a fighter. I am passionate. I am a caretaker. I am resilient. I am Here. I Exist! I create space for us to take up. I am one of many stars, deliciously bright lights, reminding everyone in darkness to take one more chance, just one more step, towards community, interconnectedness, and communal healing.
I really hope this message finds you in the dark and encourages you to keep inching toward the light. And in the event that you are feeling fully illuminated, I hope these reflections inspire you to act as beacons of hope for those who need a Star to wish upon these days.
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Beautiful article ✨
Amazing reflection 🌟